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Posted by Dr. Sticky on 10-03-2002 at08:07:

  Joy and Sadness

On the way in to work this morning i popped in Mr. Buechner's Dream (Disc 2) and just started listening. I skipped through songs and listened to "Small Great Things", "Pregnant Pause" and "Steal Away". As I listened to these songs I was filled with the overwhelming sense of God's Spirit in my car and in me. While I was overcome with Joy, i was filled with a sense of sadness. A sadness for those who have not known and do not know of this Joy. For the people in my life that do not understand what this Joy is, what the Spirit is. I wanted to cry. Even as I sit here at work I want to weep. Conviction? Probably. I've been depressed the past few months (not too depressed, but more than usual) and i realize that it's a lack of prayer and substance in my life. A lack of God. I feel convicted constantly, but then it turns into guilt and then anger and then depression on a daily basis.

I'm not writing this as a prayer request, but as a way of saying this to someone. There is noone here at work that I could tell this to. Plenty of Christians, I just don't think I could talk to them about it. They probably wouldn't understand the whole Rock Music thing. I guess I wanted to share a blessing in my life today that has brought me closer to God, although i'm sure that in two hours I will let it pass. But for now I can write it down and look back at it and remind myself.

Of course, I could always just blast MBD in my office all day.

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Posted by Dr Rich on 10-03-2002 at15:56:

 

She's got one foot on the ground, and one foot in the air...